The picture below shows a couch or rather pieces of a couch. I can picture IKEA employees having a chuckle as they think about inexperienced customers piecing together furniture puzzles. I was picturing throwing on some legs and cushions and voila! But nope, Forest and I will soon become experts in building couch frames.
My friend from the island was visiting when the truckload of furniture pieces arrived.
“Are you excited?!” She asked in a bright voice. I was too busy calculating the hours of labour to really hear her.
Last week we bought hoses and sprinklers for the first time…. Ever. It felt like a rite of passage into true adulthood. As it turned out, Dad’s Reliable sprinklers (a brand name, not Michael Conchie!) covered a far smaller area than was boasted and the expensive Canadian Tire oscillating sprinklers are defective… So they are sitting in the car with the receipt and I will water the grass seeds by hand for now.
A landscaper who was so eager didn’t turn out to be as experienced/professional as I had hoped.
I’m facing the temptation of becoming cynical. When I was a little girl, I heard adults complain about the weather, politics, prices, crime and I thought
“Oh, I guess that complaining is cool when you’re an adult.”
I remember when I gave my first “constructive” feedback, I felt so smart and sophisticated. That’s what makes movie critics famous, right? If they give too much praise, they seem to have a bias and aren’t really trustworthy.
I have been told and have realized that I can be naive, a little bit of a softy, focusing too much on the positive, a dreamer etc….
While I am learning discernment and how to deal with some inconvenient realities, I don’t want to lose my wonder.
I want to enjoy the bird songs and meeting neighbours as I gently wave the hose nozzle across the baby grass
I want to get to know Forest better and have an adventure as we build the pieces of our home.
I want to give people a change to prove their excellence and risk being let down.
I want to be thankful and see the treasures in the darkness.