I did not want to write about waiting.. to me, it has become a cliche. Our lives are too busy, instant gratification, find that quiet peace within yourself, trust God etc.. etc.. etc.. I don’t think I have much to add other than waiting is really hard sometimes.
That was tested today. I excitedly posted on facebook that my teeth were ready for jaw surgery and the 15 month wait is over… well, make that 18 months. Six weeks ago when my orthodontist said, “at your next visit we will move around your brackets so you will be ready for surgery” I focused on the ready for surgery part and not the move around brackets part.. one thing I have learned from having braces is that every change made to brackets or wire requires six plus weeks of waiting for the teeth to submit and move.
The good news that there is no more guesswork with the orthodontist. After saying with almost tears, “It is really hard for me not to know anything!” she replied, “two more visits exactly” and even made a note to herself to contact the surgeon at the next visit to give me a head start on the surgery waitlist. I inwardly groaned when she said, “he has a very long waitlist.” There’s always the cancellation list I guess.
3 months plus 6 months? “We could have had a baby by now” Forest says with a wry laugh.
BUT I don’t want to make this a complainy rant. The picture above is taken on my road trip to Bethel in Redding California. I like long driving with little traffic and ability to sail along the road. Forest and I are different in this way. He finds long trips exhausting so rest stops (with washrooms) are a good idea.
One Sunday I went up for prayer after church and my friend who prayed for me had an image of race car in his head (oh yeah, that’s what I’m talking about)… at a rest stop (oh man…) “This is a good time”. He said, “God is giving you an upgrade so that you can handle the race without crashing.) I know what crashing is like.
Don’t want to go there again. So I am putting my foot on the brake and pulling over to the rest stop to enjoy the view of married life without kids and get in sync with my husband. I am trying to fill life up, he is trying to slow life down. We are learning how to meet in the middle somewhere.
In the big scheme of things… 3 months, 6 months, 9 months is like a minute.
I was reading Psalm 37 at the blood lab today (hormone balance is another thing I am waiting on) words of comfort:
Trust in the Lord, and do good;
dwell in the land and befriend faithfulness.[b]
4 Delight yourself in the Lord,
and he will give you the desires of your heart.
5 Commit your way to the Lord;
trust in him, and he will act.
6 He will bring forth your righteousness as the light,
and your justice as the noonday.
7 Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for him;
As much as I wrestle and want to put my pedal to the metal… those words call me back to peace. Peace to you today my friends.