In preparation of Christmas I started looking at the stories of Elizabeth and Mary. In both cases an angel appears to them and/or their husband with news of a special baby coming.
If that were me I would feel awe, honour, fear of doing the wrong thing, hope for the life of my child and God’s purpose.
Imagine though if your special angel announced son turned rebel and seemed to walk completely away from God’s plan?
Meet Samson’s mama in the book of Judges.
“A certain man of Zorah, named Manoah, from the clan of the Danites, had a wife who was childless, unable to give birth. The angel of the Lord appeared to her and said, “You are barren and childless, but you are going to become pregnant and give birth to a son. Now see to it that you drink no wine or other fermented drink and that you do not eat anything unclean. You will become pregnant and have a son whose head is never to be touched by a razor because the boy is to be a Nazirite, dedicated to God from the womb. He will take the lead in delivering Israel from the hands of the Philistines.”” Judges 13:2-5 NIV. thebible.com
Wow what a promise! That your son will be dedicated to God from the womb! And deliver your nation from its cruel enemies!
How carefully his parents would have taught him and raised him up. When the time came for him to find a wife they probably had several nice Hebrew girls in mind. But their beloved son Samson dashed their hopes with his request.
“Samson went down to Timnah and saw there a young Philistine woman. When he returned, he said to his father and mother, “I have seen a Philistine woman in Timnah; now get her for me as my wife.” His father and mother replied, “Isn’t there an acceptable woman among your relatives or among all our people? Must you go to the uncircumcised Philistines to get a wife?” But Samson said to his father, “Get her for me. She’s the right one for me.”” 14:1-3
The Philistine’s weren’t just foreigners. They were oppressive enemies.
What follows in the story is a lot of violence, deception and an ultimate faith test for Samson. I encourage you to read the story for yourself in the book of Judges chapters 13-16.
I can’t imagine what his mama thought and felt through her son’s life. We all have hopes and dreams for our children. And expectations. I want Elaina to follow Jesus from a young age, have good friends, do well in school, enjoy activities such as dance and sports, live a long and healthy life etc.., etc…
One of the hardest things to do as Mamas is surrender our kids to God and trust that they are in his hands.
When Samson’s parents were horrified by his marriage request… “(His parents did not know that this was from the Lord, who was seeking an occasion to confront the Philistines; for at that time they were ruling over Israel.)” (14:4)
There is a lot of mystery in this passage and how God ultimately fulfilled his purposes in defeating the Philistines through Samson. I am keeping the Mama focus in these posts because there are so many rabbit trails and issues that I could get lost in.
Looking ahead in my daughter’s life there will be surprises and mysteries and disappointments.
Even Mary was upset and surprised with some of her son Jesus’ choices… and he was perfect!
The point that is coming out as I write is that I am not in control. I can love and teach and shape my child but ultimately her life and destiny is not up to me.
Elaina is 14 months old. The same age my little brother was when he died. Whenever I start to feel afraid for Elaina my dear husband reminds me that Elaina is in God’s hands and that is the best place for her to be.
“You saw me before I was born. Every day of my life was recorded in your book. Every moment was laid out before a single day had passed.”
Psalms 139:16 NLT